Rumah Manis Rumah

Salam peeps,

Sekarang ni dah 5 hari dah aku duk umah. Seyes bosan. Adik2 aku gi sekolah. Yang ada pun adik aku yang baru pas SPM. Itu pun bangun kul 12, tido balik kul 3. Xda life punya orang. Lebih kurang sama jah ngan aku. Duk rumah x kuar rumah. haha.. Anak dara jantan en?

Tapi duk rumah ni pun da heaven aku rasa. Makan xyah bayar, xyah guna wifi UIA yang siput, gi toilet pun xyah bayar tiga posen. Semalam aku maen badminton ngan adik aku dari asar sampai maghrib. Dah lama da x buat mende tuh. Petang2 plak duk depan tangga tengok orang lalu lalang. Kalau untung, ade r bakal bini aku lalu sambil jeling-jeling manja. Nak no aku cakap je la.. aku x mkan orang. Kalau x untung, hanya dpt tgk makcik2 berkemban je la. Confirm masuk rumah terus.

Rumah aku xde la mewah sangat. Standard rumah kampung jaaahh.. Ni rumah ke 3 x silap. Mula2 dulu aku duk Kg.Baru Jara, sebelah umah tok, pastu pindah Jengka 10 bila mak dapat kerja sana. Pastu bunyi2 To'ki nak jual rumah kat B.Pusat Jengka nie. To'ki nanges masa tu mak ckp, syg nak jual. Mak pun pujuk la ayah beli rumah ni. Ayah pun beli, modified sket, pastu duduk. Hahaha.. senang je citer. dah itu je yang aku ingat weh.. Tapi ingat agie masa mula duk rumah ni, seram weh. 1st night aku x leyh tdo. Katil kongsi ngan abang masa tu, tapi tetap dengar2 bunyi mengarut2. haha.. Takuuutt.. Nak gi toilet pun tunggu sampai subuh.

Jiran2 sini semua x berubah lagi, kiri depan belakang, except Mak Cik Nora da pindah 2 tahun lepas. Itupun pindah belakang rumah aku jaaahh..

Dulu masa kecik2 aku rajin ah tegur orang, rapat ni ngan semua jiran. Pas sekolah menengah, dapat sekolah Kuantan, jarang balik. Balik pun sebulan sekali, sabtu ahad je. Dah duk rumah plak, tidur la kejenye. Bangun2 da x kenal orang... Standard ah Sleeping Beauty en. Sekarang ni lau aku kuar rumah, jiran2 aku pandang laen je. Makin ensem kot? Ntahla... haha..

Dah la tuh.. Malas nak tulih.. Nak bersiap semayang Jumaat. 

Kbye. Salam

Lembu Yang Lembu.

Salam...

Tadi da post dah, ni nak post agie... Ari ni aku gaduh agie ngan Lembu. Sape Lembu? Ni ha...

Lembu yang lembu

Hah nampak je comel, innocent, padahal perangai hudusss betul. Serius menyampah ngan dia ni. Baru stay ngan aku for several days, da cukup buat aku rasa serik ngan guinea pig. Yang 20 ekor kat rumah tu xde pulak camni.. GRRR...

Alkisahnya, Lembu ni nama asalnya Brownies, tuan dia ada jumpa aku kat HS cafe masa aku ngan Kambing.. Ohh sweet sweet Kambing~~ N several months later, dia contact aku, tanya nak  x guinea pigs, dia nak bagi free. Aku pun mmg xnak, tp t'pikir Faat nak agie sekor, ak pun terima je la..

Sampai2 je ngan aku, mula2 baek la.. lama2 wat hal. Lembu ni memang cerdik rasanya. Sebab?

1) Dia tahu time bila aku bangun tidur, dia menjerit2 mintak makanan. Aku serong skit je badan, dia dah bunyi. X perlu alarm clock pun dia da kejut aku subuh. Dia mintak makanan camnie:

And dia akan satay camni berbunyi2 selagi aku x bagi makan.

2) Dia x makan pellet. Murah sangat katanye. Selera manusia. Hari2 aku kena bagi dia makan timun. Sayur lain xnak. Breakfast, lunch, dinner, abes RM3 jugak la aku hari2. Sampai makcik jaga kaunter tu pun da kenal aku.

3) Dia kenal suara aku!! Semalam, ak jalan balik, and dia aku punish duk luar, sbb bising sangat. Suara aku dari ground floor menyanyi2 keriangan, terus dia berbunyi!! AARRGGHHH. spoilt!!

4) Dia kenal Kuyen. Kuyen adalah roomate aku yg paling sayang Lembu ni. Nama Lembu tu pun dia bagi. Kadang2 bila aku bengang ngan Lembu, Kuyen ah yang bg makan. N sebab tu la bila nampak Kuyen dia menjerit2 keriangan konon r Kuyen nak bagi dia makan. PPPFFTTT.

5) Dia kenal bunyi plastic n bunyi pintu. Bunyi plastik tu memang semua GP pun aku rasa kenal. Tapi, Lembu ni, everytime orang bukak pintu, dia menjerit2... Dia da set yang bila aku buka pintu je, mesti bwk makann untuk dia. Tu pasal dia menjerit cam GP gila. Memang gila pun.

6) Dia tau2 je bila aku beli timun. Biasanya bila beli timun, aku beli banyak. N then aku bagi kat dia byk2, n klau dia nmpak aku pegang lebihan, menjerit2 ah dia minx agie, even baru lepas makan.

Despite semua description yang konon comel kat atas, aku tetap benci dia, sbb bunyi2 yang bnyk, n demand yang susah, bertambah2 agie beliau menerukkan ekonomi aku sekarang. FAAAAAAAAATT,, AMEK CEPAT LEMBU YOU NI SEBELUM I SEMBELIH!

One More Paper!!!

Salam readers,

Hari ni da abes subject killer: Science of Hadith. Bajet masuk yang susah2, yg complicated, last2 kuar yang surface je. Alhamdulillah.. And it was funny how every single one of us tried to compress the 4-months-course into one night. Biasa la kan, student. Kami memang hebat. Ngahahaha. Science of Hadith? Yup.. Budak English pun amek subjek agama tau. Jangan ingat kami jahil sangat.. Hahaha.. pasni harap la xde agie mulut2 cakap budak2 BENL ni bajet omputis, Ashton Kutcher wannabe -WALAUPUN nickname aku aaron. -.-"-

Esok ada 1 paper agie, DRAMA. Yang ni aku pening nak study apa. Seyes xtau -WALAUPUN dah ade skop- Pelik2 course aku ni? Memang pun. Tapi bukan senang. Camne korang struggle nak memorize formula, eksperimen, camtu jugak la kami struggle nak memorize plots, theories and history, especially French Neoclassicism tu. Apa tu? Ntah. Aku pun x study agie..

Sejujurnya, aku x sabar nak tunggu abes sem ni. Sem ni la yang paling mencabar setakat ni. Sem ni bnyak aku buat kawan, hilang kawan, kenal orang, kenal dunia. Macam selama ni aku duk terperap dalam pickle jar pun ade gak. Mujur la sem ni aku rapat ngan orang yang memahami. Ada r jugak tempat aku nk bercerita. So far, memang I'm good in making friends, I love meeting new people and make connection, but I'm suck in keeping them. I'm sorry for those who feels I'm not working hard enough, I don't care enough, I'm not good enough or I'm not appreciating you enough, from the bottom of my cold, sticky heart, I'm sorry.

Enough rantings, kena study sket agie. Doakan aku exam esok kul 9 pagi. And I miss you, yes, kau yang x pandai makan kuaci. Please gimme a call. Enjoy your holiday. Bye2.. Salam..

Why I Resented Twilight The Series

Dear blog,

I'm sure many of the readers here adores Twilight, well sorry, but not me. I resented Twilight the Series, in fact, Stephanie Meyer has become my least favorite writer. And bless Kristen Stewart, it's not her fault.

I began reading Twilight the Series when I was in IIUM Nilai, doing my foundation, when a friend gave it to me. I spent the next few weeks reading the whole series, and somehow, despite the continuation of urge to keep reading, it doesn't fascinate me, instead, I read just to hate even more.

For me, Stephanie Meyer's works are just the mere fantasy of a typical girl, and that what she's selling. Of course, more girls can relate to that, and that's what makes it countertop sells. Why am I saying this?

1) Edward Cullen is a perfect character of a charming prince.

For me, Edward Cullen here is the most unrealistic of them all. Come on girls, describe your dream guy:

-Handsome: Here's the catch right? I mean, which love novel doesn't portray a handsome hero, and Stephanie Meyer made it clear in all her series. Edward is hot guy at the school who admired by every girl alive, walking through the cafe with all eyes towards him, envied by the boys.

P/S: J.K Rowling's series never once describe Harry as a handsome boy, except from Ginny's perspective.

-Strong, and protective. Edward is very strong as a vampire, in fact, among the strongest in his coven. It's natural sense that a girl always long for a protection from a boy she loves.

-Passionate. From what has been described, Edward is the one who's more passionate. In your love, girl, don't you want a guy romantically staring at you all night, protecting you from any possible harm, threatening to commit suicide after you're break up, want to be with you all second, all day, cuddling on bed, admitting his love to you is worth more than his life?

-Well built: Edward is very fit and sexy, admit that.

-Very rich. Remember how Edward bought a pre-wedding gift of a tank-like Mercedes to Bella before a wedding? And how they spend their honeymoon in the island Esme bought for them? Man, it must be a fortune to buy an island, and a Mercedes, and what's Carlisle working as? A prime minister? Multidollar businessman? No. A doctor.

-Very 'experienced'. Edward is a 109 years-old 'boy' who trapped in 17 years-old body.

-Psychic. Remember when a girl always say to her spouse, 'I wish you know what I want, what I feel right now.' Well, Meyer has it all under her thumb there. Edward, though cannot read Bella's mind, he understands what a girl desires throughout 109 years old of experiences from the girls around him, and give it all to Bella.

-Everlasting love. As a vampire, Edward promised the happily ever after that dreamed by all girls. He cannot die from aging, and he's very strong, unlike other vampires he can stay under sun, no sunburn or whatever, and the only way he could be killed is the lethal battle with a werewolf or, a stick through his heart. Minus all these, you can live with him for as long as you want.

-And, despite all the characteristics of a hot guy above, Edward is still single. In 109 years, he's only has fallen in love once, and that's with the loser driving a red, crappy truck to the school namely Bella. Come on, 109 years? A hot guy? Surrounded by very good looking features (notice how his coven is?).. The only way he could remain chaste is he is gay. That's all I can think about.

That's all I could write for now. I got to study maaa...  To be continued..... The next thing we'll be talking about is about Bella.

What's the point here?

What's the point of being in a relationship when you know at the end of the day it will eat you inside out?
What's the point of loving someone when you are uncertain of the upcoming result?
What's the point of putting it all nicely together when you know one time the other behalf will crumb it into pieces?
What's the point of getting back when getting back is actually starting from the ground?
What's the point of giving chances when you know it's hopeless?
What's the point of hurting the pride when there's really no less to be found?
What's the point of noticing the small matters when there's a bigger one to be concerned?
What's the point of admitting the truth when the truth told is really a lie?
What's the point of coming into one's life when you're comfortable on your own?
What's the point of trying so hard when the other behalf don't seem to see it at all?
What's the point of admiring when you know it's just something you won't get?
What's the point of approaching someone just so that they'll kick you out of their life, shameful, isn't?

So, here's the one answer for all:

Sayang

Sayang

Sayang

Sayang

Sayang

Sayang

Sayang

Sayang

Sayang

Sayang

Sayang

Sayang

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Mengatur Langkah...

Aku aturi langkah lesu penuh kebimbangan, kehujanan. Elok kuatur, selangkah, selangkah. Ku tak mahu terjatuh lagi. Tak mampu terluka lagi. Pedihnya tak upaya ku tanggung. Licin? Ya, memang licin jalannya. Tersilap langkah, bodoh alangku nanti. Malu sendiri di khalayak. Setiap titis hujan kubiarkan mengalir. Biarku perbodohkan diri sendiri, menipu hati, biar tidak kusedar yang mengalir dipipi itu bukannya air dari langit. Biar ku tertawa keseorangan, biar mereka berkata, bukan hatiku yang dilukai.  Biar lah aku dalam duniaku sendiri. Biarkan.

Kadangkala ku tersenyum keseorangan, memikirkan salah-silapku. Ya, semuanya salahku. Tidak pernah dirimu salah. Masa yang salah kuberi. Hari yang salah kuberi. Tempat yang salah kuberi. Info yang salah kuberi. Bukan keluargamu juga aku yang salah. Tidak pernah salahmu. Tidak pernah maaf kau uturkan. Tidak pernah dirimu jatuh seorang pesalah. Semuanya aku. Mungkin juga. Mungkin banyak benar salahku, sehingga sebegini rupa diriku dilayan. Satu demi satu, diriku semakin dekat dengan sampah dijalan hidupmu.

Perlukah kuterus berharap? Perlukah ku terus perbodohkan diri ini? Perlukah kuterus mempercayai masa depan yang tidak pasti? Yang tidak tentu hala tujunya? Yang tidak berpaksi realiti kini? Entah. Aku bodoh sebegini. Suluhkan sinarmu, jika ini yang kau mahu. Aku sesat. Sesat mencari sesuatu yang kusendiri tidak pasti. Tunjukkan apa mahumu. Ku tak rela menunggu. Biarkan ku terus, mengatur langkah.

Life is A Big Fat Drama: Downer.

Have you ever felt this in your life? When you've achieved something, or do something good, and wanna talk about it (not bragging) as it makes you FEEL good, and there's this one person, one particular person who's everything came out from his mouth is nothing but to make you feel bad? And I'm not talking about trolling. I know what that's word means, and it's a joke. I can take it. And I'm sure there're people like this in your life too.

And this person, goes all the way, on and on, trying to get your spirit down, underestimating what you do, provoking you to do something about it. Well, so far, I'm holding it together. I did not, even once, broke down to my knees, cry and snap about it, though he did, several times actually, snapped on me.

Everyone else could see how stupid bitches are

Well, let's get technical. Why do you think he/she tries so hard bringing you down? What's in it for him/her?

I've consulted many friends, and researched about it. The answer is, because you're above them, they feel threatened by your existence, thus, they'll put you down just for the sake of self-satisfaction, or so he/she could be the top dog again.

In my case, admitted, he scored way better marks than me, and he's intelligence, but that's as far he could go. And he could see it I did a lot more than him. I'm not bragging okay, but I think his lack of self esteem brings it to his acts and heart. And when he saw me achieve this and that, he started acting bitchy to me, which is fine actually, as he potrayed his own deficiencies.

Also, the exception is that, when you're the scumbag yourself. That's karma we're talking about. You treat people as how you wanted to be treated, hold to that and you'll be fine.

Moreover, let's not being a self-righteous for a while. We're human. Although we try very hard not to make any mistakes and keep straight on the right path, it's humane to not. People love people, people hurt people, people try to make other people trip, and people try to lift some others. It's what people do.

My advice for those who have the same problem as me, keep it cool. I know, it's hard to handle sometimes, but remember, it's impossible to satisfy everyone with your act. There'll always be scumbags like this in life, one you have to deal with. Just do what you feel right, and let them keep the judgment to themselves. After a while, they'll know what they're doing is stupid, juvenile and vain. Then, they'll be ashamed of themselves. Before you go, this is a site that'll make you feel good, eh?

That's all. Kbye. =)