One More Paper!!!

Salam readers,

Hari ni da abes subject killer: Science of Hadith. Bajet masuk yang susah2, yg complicated, last2 kuar yang surface je. Alhamdulillah.. And it was funny how every single one of us tried to compress the 4-months-course into one night. Biasa la kan, student. Kami memang hebat. Ngahahaha. Science of Hadith? Yup.. Budak English pun amek subjek agama tau. Jangan ingat kami jahil sangat.. Hahaha.. pasni harap la xde agie mulut2 cakap budak2 BENL ni bajet omputis, Ashton Kutcher wannabe -WALAUPUN nickname aku aaron. -.-"-

Esok ada 1 paper agie, DRAMA. Yang ni aku pening nak study apa. Seyes xtau -WALAUPUN dah ade skop- Pelik2 course aku ni? Memang pun. Tapi bukan senang. Camne korang struggle nak memorize formula, eksperimen, camtu jugak la kami struggle nak memorize plots, theories and history, especially French Neoclassicism tu. Apa tu? Ntah. Aku pun x study agie..

Sejujurnya, aku x sabar nak tunggu abes sem ni. Sem ni la yang paling mencabar setakat ni. Sem ni bnyak aku buat kawan, hilang kawan, kenal orang, kenal dunia. Macam selama ni aku duk terperap dalam pickle jar pun ade gak. Mujur la sem ni aku rapat ngan orang yang memahami. Ada r jugak tempat aku nk bercerita. So far, memang I'm good in making friends, I love meeting new people and make connection, but I'm suck in keeping them. I'm sorry for those who feels I'm not working hard enough, I don't care enough, I'm not good enough or I'm not appreciating you enough, from the bottom of my cold, sticky heart, I'm sorry.

Enough rantings, kena study sket agie. Doakan aku exam esok kul 9 pagi. And I miss you, yes, kau yang x pandai makan kuaci. Please gimme a call. Enjoy your holiday. Bye2.. Salam..

Why I Resented Twilight The Series

Dear blog,

I'm sure many of the readers here adores Twilight, well sorry, but not me. I resented Twilight the Series, in fact, Stephanie Meyer has become my least favorite writer. And bless Kristen Stewart, it's not her fault.

I began reading Twilight the Series when I was in IIUM Nilai, doing my foundation, when a friend gave it to me. I spent the next few weeks reading the whole series, and somehow, despite the continuation of urge to keep reading, it doesn't fascinate me, instead, I read just to hate even more.

For me, Stephanie Meyer's works are just the mere fantasy of a typical girl, and that what she's selling. Of course, more girls can relate to that, and that's what makes it countertop sells. Why am I saying this?

1) Edward Cullen is a perfect character of a charming prince.

For me, Edward Cullen here is the most unrealistic of them all. Come on girls, describe your dream guy:

-Handsome: Here's the catch right? I mean, which love novel doesn't portray a handsome hero, and Stephanie Meyer made it clear in all her series. Edward is hot guy at the school who admired by every girl alive, walking through the cafe with all eyes towards him, envied by the boys.

P/S: J.K Rowling's series never once describe Harry as a handsome boy, except from Ginny's perspective.

-Strong, and protective. Edward is very strong as a vampire, in fact, among the strongest in his coven. It's natural sense that a girl always long for a protection from a boy she loves.

-Passionate. From what has been described, Edward is the one who's more passionate. In your love, girl, don't you want a guy romantically staring at you all night, protecting you from any possible harm, threatening to commit suicide after you're break up, want to be with you all second, all day, cuddling on bed, admitting his love to you is worth more than his life?

-Well built: Edward is very fit and sexy, admit that.

-Very rich. Remember how Edward bought a pre-wedding gift of a tank-like Mercedes to Bella before a wedding? And how they spend their honeymoon in the island Esme bought for them? Man, it must be a fortune to buy an island, and a Mercedes, and what's Carlisle working as? A prime minister? Multidollar businessman? No. A doctor.

-Very 'experienced'. Edward is a 109 years-old 'boy' who trapped in 17 years-old body.

-Psychic. Remember when a girl always say to her spouse, 'I wish you know what I want, what I feel right now.' Well, Meyer has it all under her thumb there. Edward, though cannot read Bella's mind, he understands what a girl desires throughout 109 years old of experiences from the girls around him, and give it all to Bella.

-Everlasting love. As a vampire, Edward promised the happily ever after that dreamed by all girls. He cannot die from aging, and he's very strong, unlike other vampires he can stay under sun, no sunburn or whatever, and the only way he could be killed is the lethal battle with a werewolf or, a stick through his heart. Minus all these, you can live with him for as long as you want.

-And, despite all the characteristics of a hot guy above, Edward is still single. In 109 years, he's only has fallen in love once, and that's with the loser driving a red, crappy truck to the school namely Bella. Come on, 109 years? A hot guy? Surrounded by very good looking features (notice how his coven is?).. The only way he could remain chaste is he is gay. That's all I can think about.

That's all I could write for now. I got to study maaa...  To be continued..... The next thing we'll be talking about is about Bella.

What's the point here?

What's the point of being in a relationship when you know at the end of the day it will eat you inside out?
What's the point of loving someone when you are uncertain of the upcoming result?
What's the point of putting it all nicely together when you know one time the other behalf will crumb it into pieces?
What's the point of getting back when getting back is actually starting from the ground?
What's the point of giving chances when you know it's hopeless?
What's the point of hurting the pride when there's really no less to be found?
What's the point of noticing the small matters when there's a bigger one to be concerned?
What's the point of admitting the truth when the truth told is really a lie?
What's the point of coming into one's life when you're comfortable on your own?
What's the point of trying so hard when the other behalf don't seem to see it at all?
What's the point of admiring when you know it's just something you won't get?
What's the point of approaching someone just so that they'll kick you out of their life, shameful, isn't?

So, here's the one answer for all:

Sayang

Sayang

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Mengatur Langkah...

Aku aturi langkah lesu penuh kebimbangan, kehujanan. Elok kuatur, selangkah, selangkah. Ku tak mahu terjatuh lagi. Tak mampu terluka lagi. Pedihnya tak upaya ku tanggung. Licin? Ya, memang licin jalannya. Tersilap langkah, bodoh alangku nanti. Malu sendiri di khalayak. Setiap titis hujan kubiarkan mengalir. Biarku perbodohkan diri sendiri, menipu hati, biar tidak kusedar yang mengalir dipipi itu bukannya air dari langit. Biar ku tertawa keseorangan, biar mereka berkata, bukan hatiku yang dilukai.  Biar lah aku dalam duniaku sendiri. Biarkan.

Kadangkala ku tersenyum keseorangan, memikirkan salah-silapku. Ya, semuanya salahku. Tidak pernah dirimu salah. Masa yang salah kuberi. Hari yang salah kuberi. Tempat yang salah kuberi. Info yang salah kuberi. Bukan keluargamu juga aku yang salah. Tidak pernah salahmu. Tidak pernah maaf kau uturkan. Tidak pernah dirimu jatuh seorang pesalah. Semuanya aku. Mungkin juga. Mungkin banyak benar salahku, sehingga sebegini rupa diriku dilayan. Satu demi satu, diriku semakin dekat dengan sampah dijalan hidupmu.

Perlukah kuterus berharap? Perlukah ku terus perbodohkan diri ini? Perlukah kuterus mempercayai masa depan yang tidak pasti? Yang tidak tentu hala tujunya? Yang tidak berpaksi realiti kini? Entah. Aku bodoh sebegini. Suluhkan sinarmu, jika ini yang kau mahu. Aku sesat. Sesat mencari sesuatu yang kusendiri tidak pasti. Tunjukkan apa mahumu. Ku tak rela menunggu. Biarkan ku terus, mengatur langkah.

Life is A Big Fat Drama: Downer.

Have you ever felt this in your life? When you've achieved something, or do something good, and wanna talk about it (not bragging) as it makes you FEEL good, and there's this one person, one particular person who's everything came out from his mouth is nothing but to make you feel bad? And I'm not talking about trolling. I know what that's word means, and it's a joke. I can take it. And I'm sure there're people like this in your life too.

And this person, goes all the way, on and on, trying to get your spirit down, underestimating what you do, provoking you to do something about it. Well, so far, I'm holding it together. I did not, even once, broke down to my knees, cry and snap about it, though he did, several times actually, snapped on me.

Everyone else could see how stupid bitches are

Well, let's get technical. Why do you think he/she tries so hard bringing you down? What's in it for him/her?

I've consulted many friends, and researched about it. The answer is, because you're above them, they feel threatened by your existence, thus, they'll put you down just for the sake of self-satisfaction, or so he/she could be the top dog again.

In my case, admitted, he scored way better marks than me, and he's intelligence, but that's as far he could go. And he could see it I did a lot more than him. I'm not bragging okay, but I think his lack of self esteem brings it to his acts and heart. And when he saw me achieve this and that, he started acting bitchy to me, which is fine actually, as he potrayed his own deficiencies.

Also, the exception is that, when you're the scumbag yourself. That's karma we're talking about. You treat people as how you wanted to be treated, hold to that and you'll be fine.

Moreover, let's not being a self-righteous for a while. We're human. Although we try very hard not to make any mistakes and keep straight on the right path, it's humane to not. People love people, people hurt people, people try to make other people trip, and people try to lift some others. It's what people do.

My advice for those who have the same problem as me, keep it cool. I know, it's hard to handle sometimes, but remember, it's impossible to satisfy everyone with your act. There'll always be scumbags like this in life, one you have to deal with. Just do what you feel right, and let them keep the judgment to themselves. After a while, they'll know what they're doing is stupid, juvenile and vain. Then, they'll be ashamed of themselves. Before you go, this is a site that'll make you feel good, eh?

That's all. Kbye. =)

Hidup Seorang Budak UIA: Bau Badan

Assalamualaikum,

Hari ni nak membebel sket la.. Tadi aku pi makan kat Cafe Ali (baca: cafe aku) , yg mana cafe paling best dalam UIA. Diakui ramai dari Habsah sampai ke Salahuddin. Aku beli nasik, ayam goreng (baca: KFC) n coleslaw. Excited sungguh aku lepas bayar tu. Dari pagi lagi x makan. Pastu berlari-lari kebapaan la ke kaunter air utk membeli secawan air anggur berais (baca: Ribena) yg mmg menjadi feveret aku. Sambil la beratur tu, aku disapa aroma yang sangat memualkan (baca: BAU LOJI), rasa nak muntah pun ade. Tengok kat belakang, sorang mamat black ngah beratur sambil tangan diangkat2 melebihi paras bahu memanggil akak jual air tu. "Mango banana sister!! Mango Banana!!" Dia menjerit2 penuh kehausan tanpa mempedulikan aku yang hampir pengsan, mulut berbuih dan mata terbuntang meminta ehsan dilepaskan dari seksa neraka dunia ittew.

Iced Mango Banana sister!!!

Aku yang dibawah...

Inilah 1 kelemahan jika anda x cukup inci (baca: tinggi lampai) dan menuntut di UIA (baca: Oxford). Jika anda berasa hanya mampu setinggi Zami Ismail, sila batalkan niat nak belajar kat UIA. Ni baru kat cafe, dlam bas lagi la plak. Macam2 campuran, lagi hebat aromanya.

Menda ni x jadi masalah sebenarnya, kalau dorg kenal apa tu Rexona, Right Guard, Safi, Old Spice High Endurance (yg ni bagus), or Adidas, Brylcream, etc. Ni dah la deodorant x pakai, perfume jauh skali. Sekali lalu sebelah berpinar mata rasanya. Menda ni bukan terhad kat lelaki saja. Pompuan foreigner pun sama. Pernah skali aku lalu di belakang minah black ni, bau cam xmandi 2bulan sambil tidur ngan kambing. Pengotor!

If you're not a foreigner, and still was-was pasal bau badan korg, cuba try step ni:

1) Berdiri depan cermin besar dlam bilik korg tu, admire diri sendiri dulu, puji2 sket bagi mengembangkan mana yg patut.
2) Panggil roomate korg, suh cium ketiak korg. Kalau dia hidup lagi lepas tu, tahniah, ketiak anda wangi. Lau dia pitam, hidung berdarah, muntah hijau keluar asid perut, sambil menyumpah seranah anda 1 keturunan, sila panggilkan ambulan cepat2 sambil mengenakan deodorant. Anda tidak mahu menjadi pembunuh bersiri, bukan?

Buat camni...

My message, kenal la diri anda. Kalau sedar diri bau tu hazab, pakai r perfume n deodorant banyak2, supaya x menyusahkan orang laen. Sebelum orang fire kat atas muka, baek kau ubah sendiri. Betul x?

Thanks for reading. Bye2 =) 

Life Is A Big Fat Drama: Of A Cleaner, Friend and Crap.

It's a world's greatest love story, and suddenly I'm a part of it. Ho yeah!! Betapa besarnya hatiku, tankayu!

To those who concerned,

Before everything, may I ask you some questions? Am I not the one who's been a sponge draining every little drops you tear down? Am I not the one who you used to ask for advices? Am I not the one who you'd turn to when everything you want to hear about him you couldn't ask yourself? What did he eat, where did he go, who is that he's friend with, am I not the one who answers all that? Suddenly you stepped up now and I'm the bad guy, you say, conspiring to bring down the one who you love (yes, you still do), my friend?

I can see that. You're a big girl now. You have it all figured out. How's that working out for you? Guess you don't wake up in the middle of the night, crying, thinking about him are you? And maybe you don't walk out of your door with hope of seeing him every single second?

Dear grown-up girl,

GET YOURSELF A BRAIN AND QUIT BITCHING AROUND ABOUT HOW PEOPLE BEING CRUEL TO YOU, AND PLEASE, FOR THE SAKE OF OTHERS, QUIT THINKING ABOUT HIM OUT LOUD. YOU BROUGHT THIS UPON YOURSELF!!!

there's no room for a backstabbing bitch in my life

ADIOS!